Bo's Sept 19 Article

This made me cry. I guess because I have been waiting too...
I hope midnight comes soon :)

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How To Have A Breakthrough
Sorry, no 9-page article today.
This will be short.
I just want to ask you a question: Do you feel like you’re stuck in an area of your life?
Perhaps you feel you’re not growing in your marriage.
Or in your career.
Or in your relationship with our kids.
Or in your fight against bad habits.
If this your situation, let me share God’s Word to you today…
The Purpose Of Pain

I was reading a story of a guy who was only 14 years old but already 200 pounds.   His parents told him to lose weight. His teachers told him to lose weight. His friends told him to lose weight. But he never did.
       Until one day, something happened.
       It was swimming class. And he was in his trunks, standing on the concrete slab. Beside him were 7 other young boys who were as heavy as the breakfast he ate that morning. And surrounding him were hundreds of people all looking at his direction.
       He felt so embarrassed.
Standing on that concrete slab, half-naked in the swimming pool, he couldn’t hide anymore the teenage flab. All of a sudden, he realized he needed to change.
       And that’s what he did.
       Today, he’s not only changed his body, he changed his mind too. He’s become a stronger, happier, more confident individual.
       He thanks God for that moment of pain.
       Without that pain, there would have been no breakthrough in his life.
       You may be in a lot of intense pain right now.
       You have a choice.
       When there’s intense pain in your life, you can respond in two ways.
       You can have a breakdown.
       Or you can have a breakthrough.
       The choice is yours.
       What will it be for you?

God’s Answer May Come At Midnight
Are you waiting for a miracle?  Waiting for an answered prayer? Waiting for a breakthrough?
Perhaps you have been praying for a child that has gone wayward. You’ve wept many tears, asking God that your child come back. But after many years, you’re still waiting for the answer to that prayer.
Perhaps you’ve have been hoping for financial breakthrough. So far, nothing has been happening yet. Sometimes, you wonder if God has forgotten you.

Perhaps you’ve been praying that you be delivered from a habitual sin. Time and time again, you have fallen.   You continue to wait for that day when you’ll be free from your addiction. You wonder if it will ever come.

If you’re in this difficult situation right now, listen to the story of Jesus about the 10 bridesmaids. He said…
At that time the Kingdom of heaven will be like this. Once there were ten young women who took their oil lamps and went out to meet the bridegroom.  Five of them were foolish, and the other five were wise. The foolish ones took their lamps but did not take any extra oil with them, while the wise ones took containers full of oil for their lamps. The bridegroom was late in coming, so they began to nod and fall asleep… (Matthew 25:1-5)

In the story, the ten women fell asleep. Not just the foolish ones. But the wise ones too.   Because they got tired of waiting.
Are you tired of waiting?
Are you tempted to just give up?
Some people have given up all expectation. So that they can avoid the pain of disappointments. Some have chosen to live in the bottom pit and be content living there.
And then Jesus continues the story…
It was already midnight when the cry rang out, Here is the bridegroom! Come and meet him!

Friend, what you have been waiting for will come.


But it may come at midnight. It may come late in the night. It may come when you thought it wouldn’t come anymore. But it will come. I don’t know how. Don’t let me explain how. But what you’re praying for—in its most beautiful form—will be given to you.

The difference between the wise women and the foolish women were the amount of oil they brought.

And the oil represents your trust.

Will you bring extra trust in God during those times when He answers your prayer at midnight?

May your dreams come true,

Bo Sanchez

I want my magic back!

You.

What a week!

To some extent I can’t help but think that it’s good I don’t have a boyfriend right now otherwise I would have driven him crazy. But oh boy, grabe.  Last Wednesday, I remember just sobbing while refueling at Shell Fort, stopping to drive off then continuing after parking at Valle Verde. I couldn’t help but feel tired. Overwhelmed. Uninspired.  And I begged God for Magic to come back into my life.  Isabel’s good bye note saved me that night. She said I inspired her, and went on to say how I changed her life in the 3 months that I had her as my intern. Heavy stuff right. But at the same time I felt mollified.  Finally someone appreciates me. Is my need for attention justified? Or am I just being KSP. After all, I’m getting into GO on expat (lite) basis and being assigned abroad. So in a way that is Shell showing its appreciation to me. SO maybe I just need to have Magic back again in my life.

God didn’t stop with Isabel though. Today I finally receive communications from the German Embassy.  I’m being asked to surrender my passport for them to put in my work visa. And then I can go.  How excited I was when Kier, our Admin Assistant, knocked and told me a messenger had something for me from the German Embassy. I would have ripped off the plastic wrap, except that I managed to muster enough self-control to get a pair of scissors and snip off the wrap.  Thank you God. I needed the boost.

With the letter from the Embassy though the my imminent departure is starting  to get real.  And sometimes I get gripped with a bit of panic. Don’t get me wrong. I so want to GO already. New life, new challenges, new friends. But I can’t help but worry that I’ll be all alone there. And what about all that I’m leaving behind here. What happens next?  Anyhow, I roughly have 20 days to go… OMG, 20 DAYS LEFT?!

Yes, see. Panic moments…

Moves Like Jagger - Maroon 5

Dedicated to J
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(ft. Christina Aguilera)

[Verse 1]
Just shoot for the stars
If it feels right
And aim for my heart
If you feel like
Can take me away and make it OK
I swear I'll behave

You wanted control
So we waited
I put on a show
Now I make it
You say I'm a kid
My ego is big
I don't give a shit
And it goes like this

[Chorus]
Take me by the tongue
And I'll know you
Kiss me 'til you're drunk
And I'll show you

All the moves like Jagger
I've got the moves like Jagger
I've got the moves like jagger

I don't need to try to control you
Look into my eyes and I'll own you

You with the moves like Jagger
I've got the moves like Jagger
I've got the moves like Jagger

[Verse 2]
Baby it's hard
When you feel like you're broken and scarred
Nothing feels right
But when you're with me
I make you believe
That I've got the key

So get in the car
We can ride it
Wherever you want
Get inside it
And you want to steer
But I'm shifting gears
I'll take it from here
And it goes like this

[Chorus]
Take me by the tongue
And I'll know you
Kiss me 'til you're drunk
And I'll show you

All the moves like Jagger
I've got the moves like Jagger
I've got the moves like Jagger

I don't need to try to control you
Look into my eyes and I'll own you

With the moves like Jagger
I've got the moves like Jagger
I've got the moves like Jagger

[Bridge]
You want to know how to make me smile
Take control, own me just for the night
But if I share my secret
You're gonna have to keep it
Nobody else can see this

So watch and learn
I won't show you twice
Head to toe, ooh baby, rub me right
But if I share my secret
You're gonna have to keep it
Nobody else can see this

And it goes like this

pensive

Don't know what's up with me lately. Must be the weather... or the hormones. I'm starting to say a couple of goodbyes actually and it's starting to suck. To think this is only the start - what more if I'm actually about to leave. I hope I can be as stoic as I'd hope. But I don't know.

So yes last night I was ... for lack of a better to make it less pathetic, lonely. So this move is actually mixed feelings. I want to go but I'm sad about leaving things behind. Anyhow it's one more of the other. After all that's happened, I want to start another chapter in Hamburg. Forget about the memories built here in Manila the past 6 years. Start fresh. Keep the way things are with J good, uncomplicated and interesting.

Anyhow to combat the loneliness, I went to the gym. And as usual, running saved me. I guess the endorphin rush was just enough to tire me out, improve my mood and get me to sleep.

A few months down the line, I hope I will be writing a different theme.

Earlier this year, I had my break with this spot in the GO Programme. I can't wait for the rest of my life to get peaking again (more often than not). I'm sure to take you with me through my journey given that I've revived my writing again.